Saturday, July 31, 2004
i don't know how it happened, i was reading it and then bang,i started crying, my eyes hurts so much now, i miss my granny so much, i just love her to bits. Granny, i LOVE YOU! so much.and she just left yesterday night, trying so hard to stop myself from crying. When looking at the perumes, smelt it till i almost died, and i smelt it cos i tried to stop myself from crying. If i did, granny would've. and though i wasn't that close to her the whole two weeks she was here, i will always remember her as my dear granny. i have to remember to put granny in prayer, her high blood pressure and everything. i just love my granny too much, too much to bear. GRANNY, I LOVE YOUUUU!i hope you're doing fine,-cry-,and i hope that you and gogo are going well back in Singapore, hope that you're blood pressure doesn't get too high ok? -cries-,-wipes tears- granny, remember that the Lord is always with you and i, and he will protect you as much as he protects me and remember to take your medicine at the correct time, rest if you're tired, pray when you're weary. Gogo, you must take care of my dear granny, be sure tha she's fine in everyway. Though i can't be there with you guys, don't cry for me, and i promise i won't cry anymore. All i can do now is pray for you guys and wis you all the best until i come back and i'l be able to hug you guys again and again.
granny,
i l o v e y o u . . . .
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Friday, July 30, 2004
-SCREAMS-
he accused me, for the damn bloody camera.
HELLO!LOOK PROPERLY BEFORE YOU SCOLD PEOPLE!you're such a *toot*face. Gosh...i'm soooooo pissed now....really pissed...granny is leaving today and guess what?I'M PISSED! HEAR THAT DADDY?I'M PISSED!SO PISSED THAT I FEEL LIKE PUNCHING YOU IN THE FACE...if you didn't know where i got my violent streak from...CHECK YOURSELF!ITS CALLED GENES!pffft...phew...got my blow out....i feel okok now..."oh,tammy check YOUR ROOM IF YOU'VE TAKEN THE CAMERA!" no i did not take your camera....ITS IN THE CAR YOU THING!check..hah..check over my rotten shit man...and you mommy...any oh how go and accuse me oso...and go and blame granny and gogo,..you siao arhx..kanasai...I'M TOO PISSED TO BLOG...PFFFFFFFFTTTTTTTTT
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Wednesday, July 28, 2004
wheeee...i had good reports today man....like...everything was good except for my history and geography...i can't understand why i didn't excel in that...Mrs.Stevens said that i'm not made for that subject...i so totally agreeeeee...and i was reading cammie's blog...she thought that wolverine was colin firth...like..erm...colin firth was in LOVE ACTUALLY and WHAT A GIRL WANTS...sigh...sometimes she gets so muddled up..that's the cute thing about Cammie....you muddle upperer...ahaha....anyhews...i'm still really distracted....from what you left behind for me..you mean so much to me....i'm depressed...i'm sad..i CAN'T CONCENTRATE! i love you too much..too much..its so much to bear.....all i can do all day is be hurt all over again and again and again...i dun wanna be hurt...i dun wanna be hurt....i broke down again when i was pretending to sleep after the reports today...i just hugged you and cried.....and pretend to me when you have another girl...i dun wanna get hurt again...please don't hurt me anymore...please....i'm f r a g i l e....just this fragile heart...fragile heart...-breaks-i'm falling....and my head finally can rest on something real...i like the feeling of it..cos its in reality....Pieces, pieces of me....breaking up and going into you....i'm this bitch that can be pushed around...thanks...
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Tuesday, July 27, 2004
oooooooookkkkkkkkkk.....yesterday i had zone rehersals...nice and all but the damn stoopid keyboard player is sooooooo particular about stuff that we don't wanna hear..ok...then there were some HOTTT guys(according to Cassie Jessop)from De la Selle and Bernadette had some crush on this Mat guy playing some instrument from this jazz band..-ooh-And this other Matt guy..[note:one has one T and the other has two T's.]he plays the drums..and you should see him when he plays the drums...he goes insane and he's soooooooooo coooooool.So, that was yesterday..today is today...i had Reflection day...and its so not reflection..what is it called?Its called play time..[i'm writing this down for those who are stoopid enough not to know what is sarcasm]anyhoos..the guy was darn hilarious....and he is sooooo cooooollll...and he knows all the newest and cool songs in the whole wide world...and i was enjoying myself so much...((((((((((((:Cammie!!!!!!!!!!!!!WRITE TO MEEEE...if you guys didn't know..i like to receive letters...its so fun..and i keep writing to my friends and this person..from ACS I and though the ACS I replys...THE REST DOESN'T!sigh...i'm sad and depressed again..i broke down today when i was reflecting by myself at this corner..but good thing my friends didn't see me and all..they would've swamped around me like mad..i was thinking about what i've been through..being in a relationship and giving into it...and sacraficing alot for it..and suffering for it...enjoying every minute of it...loving the other opposite sex...loving till it hurts now...loving till it makes me cry and cry..and then i realize that..he MIGHT get bored of me...ignoring me..saying you're busy with all your nationals..and...friends have been telling me stuff...i initially didn't believe them..but now i come to a conclusion that i might have to seep some of the stuff they said into my ice-cold brain to make me realize what i should've been thinking all along...and when i love someone..i don't look at their outside appearance..i don't really care....i love what's on the inside..and that's why i fell for you...you on your inside..not you on your outside...and if i can love you once more...i'll try my best to love you more..and more each day...cos i love the feeling when i fall in love with you...and whenever i do that...i love you even more till i hurt and get scarred...not matter what it takes...i'm going back into your life...i swear..i will do that...-sigh-
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Saturday, July 24, 2004
i'm so being ignored by someone...could you stop ignoring me...its not a damn solution hokiies????anyhoops...lemme say my say today...i went to ALICIA THE BABE'S partay...which was the best partay ever...GO CHRISTIAN!YOU ROCK BIG TIME!so..i came back all tired had dinner just then and then now...on the computer lorh...aiyo..everytime i see the wishlist i have..i feel so bad...NO NEED TO BUY FOR ME!i'm just fat thinking...anyhoops..tired.....TIRED...byebyebyebeybe
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Friday, July 23, 2004
I AM ASKING WAY MUCH...heehee..((((((((: oswwy.you guys don't have to buy it..not asking you to buy it though...but all i know is that i'm ASKING WAY TOO MUCH..i just like those stuff....heehee....
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Thursday, July 22, 2004
EEEEEKKKKKKK!i can't believe me....its parent/teacher interaction die liaox....I'M GONNA DIE!and reflection day..can wear casual clothes to school....yippee!so..no school on mundae cos i have zone rehersals...tuedae..no school cos it's reflection day and wednesday is PUPIL FREE DAY!go those days..i love those days...but..sigh...i gotta go and meet to teachers with my mummy and mah daddy...crap..they're probably gonna say i talk too much...do i?well, at least not as much as -toot-...she always turns around and talks..it kinda irritates be quite a bit...and drama was SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO fffuuuunnnnn today..acting like plastic girls a.k.a bitchy...(:i LOVVEEEEE DRAMA!go drama!go drama!and today...went back on the bus...and we were singing perfect in drama...SP...shit poo...gosh..i made that up....i can't believe me....OW..ME LEG...IS BROKON...TAKE A PICTURE AND LAST LONGER...stoopid Daria thing...Marilyn was fully saying it on the bus and wth..i so couldn't be bothered...and today..had to go and meet mrs.Godfrey to give her my reflection day form...and she was wearing her beggar gloves...those with the holes on the tips so that your finggies can poke out...man...i hate those gloves..no offence to those who like it...(:i mean no harm to you guys..just that it so doesn't fit her...and those boots from TARGET..they suck..and she wears them with skirts..ewww...she looks like mrs.Giles...yuck...anyhoops......i'm too cold to type nowadays...and mrs.Stevens is going to have her baby girl named after her sister who is in heaven peacefully....poor thing and her name is Rhonnie, which is the nickname for Rhonda...i feel for mrs.Stevens...hoops!
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i'm on the laptop...i'm on the laptop...i'm on the laptop...i'm on the laptop...i'm on the laptop...i'm on the laptop...i'm on the laptop...i'm on the laptop...i'm on the laptop...i'm on the laptop...i'm on the laptop...i'm on the laptop...i'm on the laptop...i'm on the laptop...i'm on the laptop...i'm on the laptop...i'm on the laptop...i'm on the laptop...i'm on the laptop...i'm on the laptop...i'm on the laptop...i'm on the laptop...i'm on the laptop...i'm on the laptop...i'm on the laptop...i'm on the laptop...i'm on the laptop...i'm on the laptop...i'm on the laptop...i'm on the laptop...AND I'M SO BORED!i just made fishballs by the way, and its so fun, had dumplings for recess and fried rice for lunch...
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Tuesday, July 20, 2004
Granny and gogo are here now...in the kitchen is Granny...-points to granny-....she's like..the BEST BEST BESTEST grandma ever known..everyone..PRAISE HER!and this is my auntie Doris,-points to gogo-she's the nicest auntie around...besides yeye Chris, she's like the coolest auntie, wear hipster and all....yepps...ahaha....in a okok mood today....granny brought like...two luggages of candies for US!YAY..GO YOU GUYS YOU RAWK!ahahaha...anyhews...i'm busy now doing some STUPID storybook for english..bleah...
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Monday, July 19, 2004
ok..i take back my words...damn..i hate school...but..the thing is..i don't really hate it?i just...don't like waking up in the morning and bleh...homework is nothing larh..but i just HATE waking up in the MORNING....so tired...and bleh..i thought life here would be more relaxing....hah...it is ..but...sigh..i want home school.....sigh...but my parents not that smart enough....i'm not being mean...i mean.imagine...you have to have home school but your parents can't teach you...sigh..i'm being sensitive again...why....anyhoos.....sigh...i seriously take back my word....learning about Medieval times?nuh...i'm so not going to listen....and early Modern times...like what exactly you mean hurps?sigh...i'm not in the mood to blog today...
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Thursday, July 15, 2004
-shouts happily-YESSS.....i'm starting school on MUNDAE!YAY!hooray!I CAN REJOICE SO MUCH NOW...I LOVE GETTING BUSTED BY TEACHERS!wheeee~!and yess....i love forward to studying again..with all my beloved teachers!-puke-i just love school!...sigh..and its been two weeks of freezing off my arse in the cold weather...and winter is going to end soon...sigh...i love winter...but i expect more in Spring...not hot nor cold...so it should be nicer....and hmmm..i'll be starting history this semester...look forward to that too..aiyo...gotta go...byee people...ciao
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Wednesday, July 14, 2004
sigh..FINALLY THE HOLIDAYS ARE OVER!YESSSS....i can escape the wings of BOREDOM..WHEEE~!i'm too happy to blog! CIAO PEOPLE!
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Tuesday, July 13, 2004
sigh..last week of holidas..bored till siao arhx...i'm SIAO!SIAO ME!..i'm siao...and the holidays make me siao..not me myself and i...sigh...and i'm mad larhx...I AM MAD!...madness can kill me...i'm already half dead..sigh...today..did nothing..woke up at like...11 smth..then i watch tv..watch vicky do her chocobo racing thing...she UNLEASHED the fantasia thing and had a new character in the story thing..then sigh..did nothing.wrote a letter the a special someone...and then i sat down on my chair and waited till boredom captured me in its wings...I'M BORED PEOPLE!MAKE ME LAUGH..SOMEONE MAKE ME LAUGH..I'M GONNA DIE SOON!i'm glad there's school next week..yay...i miss my uniform...OH..AND I WATCH METEOR GARDEN II..so funny...dao ming si got knocked down by Michelle Saram..and i can't stand her laugh...urgh..so irritating...and her chinese..so un pro one...eeyer...-shudders-..can't stand it...and she laugh all the time...so irritating....and that Shan Cai..mountain Vegetable...ee...dunno how to shout don't shout larhx..wah piang..only thing she only know how to do is burst my eardrums lorhx..ow...and...FEEPS!i'm coming back to Singapore!ON THE 8TH OF DEC TILL THE 12TH OF JANUARY!...hmm..40 smth days..i finally have something important to look forward to!FEEPS!And i watched New York Minute..kinda lame-o..but aiyo..girly movies are ok one larhx...anyhews...gtg...God Bless all of you guys!
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Saturday, July 10, 2004
wow...my mei mei calls me the accuser..fweee!and she's laugher..so we're quits...ahahah..i feel rejected...no one's talking to me...JOYCELYNN..YOU KNOW HOW I MUCH I MISS YOU????sigh..I WANNA GO BACK!!!
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wow...my mei mei calls me the accuser..fweee!and she's laugher..so we're quits...ahahah..i feel rejected...no one's talking to me...JOYCELYNN..YOU KNOW HOW I MUCH I MISS YOU????sigh..I WANNA GO BACK!!!
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wow...my mei mei calls me the accuser..fweee!and she's laugher..so we're quits...ahahah..i feel rejected...no one's talking to me...JOYCELYNN..YOU KNOW HOW I MUCH I MISS YOU????sigh..I WANNA GO BACK!!!
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Thursday, July 08, 2004
oh i don't know...getting all the cramps and ow..it really hurts...and now..dunno why..hate eating..the cramps are too powerful..it hurts alot..hmm..i think my blog is nice and all but..urgh..i still think there's something missing to it..anways..its the hols..and man..am i bored..its so boring here..i need to go to Luna Park again..let all my fun out..and..hmm..nothing much today...i'm home alone with my nasty younger sister..mum went out with jie jie joos...she needed to hand in her resume or something something...ooh...watch School Of Rock..and Amelie, that frenchie movie..its so nice..i just love the language..I WANNA LEARN FRENCH!..hmm...smoke on Cedars(i dun really exactly know what the name is, but it's something liddat),Big Fish..ok larh this movie..abit the siao but still very nice..especially the "siamese" twins..they aren't exactly "siamese"?they'e just twins but they were made to look like "siamese" in the movie...what else did i do...hmm...i lazed around the whole morning like a piece of shit...and there isn't even training to keep me busy..so guess what..i'm so bored tese days..i even forget the meaning of bored..sigh..i'm BORED TO DEATH...i just watched Monsters.Inc..I LOVE BOO!...its so saddening this movie..made me cry...i'm gonna miss you Boo....and sigh...i can't even find a job around here..i'm to young..as what the government says..you must be 14 years and 9 months old to start working..and i'm NOT EVEN 14!..so yeah..talk about lazy...i'm not lazy..the holidays make me lazy..i'm not lazy at heart..trust me..even if i am..i still get the job done...and i always DO get the job done..unlike my sisters...i just hate it when it is their turn to wash the dishes..and they don't wanna do it..I HAVE TO DO IT FOR THEM!..and i don't get anything in return.."Tammy,daddy always give you what you want,just do this one more time ok?" Like my parent's actually give me what i want..let's just say that i want a dog a room of my own and my own computer and my own tvand stereo set and my own car and my own bed and my own everything..i dont't think they could give me that..can they? Ha..no..going out tonight...going to some old people club thing...WHY GO OUT?..i hate going out with these people..always the same old them..SIGH!!!!......i'm dead tired..ciao people...have a fun time having your eyes bleeding to see me blog..byeee...
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wow...i finally know how to control my blog now..it's tame..phew!hard work manx...talked onthe phone with my darling..then i went on working with the blog..i watch NEW YORK MINUTE today,,ok lorh..just a normal girly film...with the Olsen Twins..and Mary-Kate playing her worst at the drums..she kinda sucks?yeah..but Kevin Clark ROOLS AT THE DRUMS!GO KEVIN!GO KEVIN!yeah..oh..and the flute..played a nice song yesterday...and now my tummy hurts..and...crap..I'M IN THE PMS MOOD NOW..i hate my periods,they really suck big time...ow..ow..ow...and hmm...i'm not really into the football craze...i like sleeping in..i can finally relax and catch up with my beauty sleep and MY EYEBAGS ARE HUGE!..so..yeah..the beauty sleep helps alot with the removing of the eyebags..and nowadays..its so cold..and i'll be freezing under my covers..and i feel like a pig...i need to exercise...EXERCISE!!...can't swim..too cold to run..aiyo..do yoga larh...THE ICE-CREAM MAN IS HERE!!...wheeee~!ME GO BUY ICE-CREAM!TATA!
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Tuesday, July 06, 2004
I HATE MY BLOG..it sucks hokay..urgh..I NEED HELP..I'M PATHETIC!!!
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I HATE MY BLOG..it sucks hokay..urgh..I NEED HELP..I'M PATHETIC!!!
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I HATE MY BLOG..it sucks hokay..urgh..I NEED HELP..I'M PATHETIC!!!
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Monday, July 05, 2004
SIGH...i like to have a blog, but i hate blogging..urgh..it sucks,,but sigh..just have to do it..erm.nothing practically to do..its the holidays and man..i'm just walking around the house like a piece of shit..so boring..aiyo..i hate the holidays..but..OOH..LUNA PARK IS THE BEST!!..i want to go there again..so fun..wild mouse and the vertical slide..go it!OH!
I'M COMING BACK TO SINGAPORE ON THE 8TH OF DECEMBER AND LEAVING ON THE 12TH OF JANUARY! i know its a long way more but..you know..i so look forward to it!(: its so fun to ride on a plane..but i always feel like vomiting all the time..-pukes- and i hate the food..but its fun riding on a plane..i can't wait to see my mei mei and WHEEE~!I LOVE MY MEI MEI..and her dog is the dog rawker! GO THAT DOG! YOU RAWK!sigh.i sound like some lame arse just then..heehee...anyways...i don't like sitting around in the holidays..its boring ..i can't even go back to school..sigh..sigh..sigh..
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