Tuesday, July 27, 2004
oooooooookkkkkkkkkk.....yesterday i had zone rehersals...nice and all but the damn stoopid keyboard player is sooooooo particular about stuff that we don't wanna hear..ok...then there were some HOTTT guys(according to Cassie Jessop)from De la Selle and Bernadette had some crush on this Mat guy playing some instrument from this jazz band..-ooh-And this other Matt guy..[note:one has one T and the other has two T's.]he plays the drums..and you should see him when he plays the drums...he goes insane and he's soooooooooo coooooool.So, that was yesterday..today is today...i had Reflection day...and its so not reflection..what is it called?Its called play time..[i'm writing this down for those who are stoopid enough not to know what is sarcasm]anyhoos..the guy was darn hilarious....and he is sooooo cooooollll...and he knows all the newest and cool songs in the whole wide world...and i was enjoying myself so much...((((((((((((:Cammie!!!!!!!!!!!!!WRITE TO MEEEE...if you guys didn't know..i like to receive letters...its so fun..and i keep writing to my friends and this person..from ACS I and though the ACS I replys...THE REST DOESN'T!sigh...i'm sad and depressed again..i broke down today when i was reflecting by myself at this corner..but good thing my friends didn't see me and all..they would've swamped around me like mad..i was thinking about what i've been through..being in a relationship and giving into it...and sacraficing alot for it..and suffering for it...enjoying every minute of it...loving the other opposite sex...loving till it hurts now...loving till it makes me cry and cry..and then i realize that..he MIGHT get bored of me...ignoring me..saying you're busy with all your nationals..and...friends have been telling me stuff...i initially didn't believe them..but now i come to a conclusion that i might have to seep some of the stuff they said into my ice-cold brain to make me realize what i should've been thinking all along...and when i love someone..i don't look at their outside appearance..i don't really care....i love what's on the inside..and that's why i fell for you...you on your inside..not you on your outside...and if i can love you once more...i'll try my best to love you more..and more each day...cos i love the feeling when i fall in love with you...and whenever i do that...i love you even more till i hurt and get scarred...not matter what it takes...i'm going back into your life...i swear..i will do that...-sigh-
tammy bass-ed her way out
