Saturday, August 13, 2005
i don't know why i'm doing this but i think i should.
i just wanna tell my granny that i love her very,very much.
she just came to talk to us,major crying session,and told us how she came here fur us.My dad migrated the whole family here because of us.Yes,all three of us,Justina,Me and Victoria.i kinda think that this whole thing is my fault,because my dad came here to give me a better future(thanks daddy)but i kinda took it for granted.I came here and became slack,from a study maniac to a good-for-nothing.(Thus the name LAK-Lazy Ass Koala)
When my granny came here,i kinda made her drive herself to the wall,(well,not exactly my fault,it was the family's)making her do everything.
We made her feel vulnerable,like a maid(as bad as it may sound,yes it is true)and she didn't like it.
She even came to talk to us to vote if we wanted her to move out.
I don't want that to happen.I don't want her to go,i love my granny and i can't bear to see her cry.When she was half-crying and half-talking to us,i felt my conscience hit me in the eye,causing me to cry.It was very heart emotionally,well for me it is.
And she brought up about how this computer situation came up,and she told me that she felt transparent,how i don't ask her anything and i just go,dash off to do my things.I feel really bad on not spending time with her,(maybe because we don't know what to do)and URGH.I just feel like a piece of shit now.No one stands more powerful in the family like my granny.And if she cries,it means serious buisness.
I should pray to God about this.
I should change too.
i want my granny to feel like she's the queen.
I love you granny.
tammy bass-ed her way out
